all i can really say right now is fuck you.

fuck you for knowing too much. fuck you and your little attachments. fuck you and your thoughts. fuck you and your jumping to worst case scenarios, fuck your ability to feel anything other than

happy and fine.

but most of all, fuck your relationship with my heart.

i don’t really understand how that works, exactly. how do you guys communicate? what do you say? which one should i listen to? how do i tell the difference? what choices do i make?

which is typing these words?

what version of myself is speaking?

and do i ever

really

have control over any of it?