i still have hope

i hope it isn’t a toxic level of it

i did mean hope for you, specifically, but i do have it for everyone. 

i still believe in love. 

it’s the only thing i really believe in, actually. 

don’t forget that. 

and don’t forget me. 

please. 

and if i’m just a joke you make in passing to the person you married 30 years ago

then at least i’ll know

that i changed your life in some way.

you changed mine. 

and the thing about someone changing your life?

you always change theirs, too. 

i hope you believe in love a little more, because of me, even if it doesn’t come from me. 

i hope it does come from me. 

i hope that i find people, over and over again, that are better for me than you ever could be. 

i hope i forget about you. 

i hope you’re all i think about. 

the magical thing about hope is

you can hope for whatever you want. and if you hope for everything, you can find peace in anything. 

find ways to hope for everything. that way, when anything comes, you’ll be better. 

i want you to be better. 

not that you ever,

have ever, 

will ever, 

need to be.