i’ve craved your attention. yearned for you to hold me again. you’re safety and comfort.

but you’re also dangerous. you’re a reason to lose focus. you can become a distraction from truths. you can empty me as much as you’ve filled me. 

your potential for good and bad are both infinite. and so am i. and so is love. boundless, irrational, undeniable. 

“there are these moments. moments that extend into forever and remind you of how full you can be.”

i choose these moments, over and over again. i choose creation and destruction, peace and chaos, love and hate because each are infinite and infinitely valuable. 

may we push forward through the seas of time with a vessel built for the journey. 

fulfilling my purpose is not safe. 

i’m not wanting what others want. i’m scared to lose him. and that means i know i can. 

and maybe i should. 

i will no longer lie to myself.