on the first day I arrived, said goodbye to mom and dad which felt about how I expected it would. then I went back to my room which was already all set up and got restless right away. I felt like I needed to be elsewhere, meeting people, finding people I had already been talking to online and all that jazz. so I went up to the fourth floor lounge, where this kid and a girl I can’t remember the name were sitting and talking. I sat down and started to talk to them and it felt really awkward at first. we had a conversation I don’t remember anything about, probably the usual orientation banter. then she, who will be important later, ran into the room and said that she was in the quad. the four of us went down to the quad and sat on a bench pretending that we were not watching as she said goodbye to her son james who is also important later. then she walked by us and said hi to me.

we sat there on the bench for a while and with some time some other people started showing up. they were all random people in james mead, some of which I would become very close to later and others that I would never talk to again. after i went to the main green with him and some of the other people that i met there. there was a group on the green, and i met him who i would hook up with later, this red head girl that i do not know the name of but looks like the girl from It and some others. i also saw her from afar, who is someone that i recognized from Instagram. i introduced myself and said that i knew her from the zooms and from Instagram, and i think she was with her. the three of us chatted for a while and then we went to the ratty for dinner. who knows what we talked about. after i do not remember much until the ice cream social except that she and i walked back to keeney together and she said that she was popular in high school and then we registered to vote in rhode island. at the ice cream social i met him for the first time, and some others. that night i met dana again, and we ended up in a group with them. i am still friendly with them but have not talked to them since the first few days really. we walked back to keeney where there was a huge party on the fourth floor without any alcohol. then i got the address for the crew house from someone on snap and i led them there. at that point we had gained a few more people and as we walked more joined. soon i was leading this gigantic posse of people to the crew house, but on the way we ran into another group that said that the party got busted. that made us turn around and i have no memory of what we did after that night.

the next night the four of us smoked some of max’s weed and sat in his room, walked around the dorm and had a good time. we had a deep talk about something, max talked about the difficulty that he was having with the long distance relationship that he was in. i renember thinkin that night that i had a friend group in college.

within those first few days i met them, all who lived on j mead 3rd floor and who i hung out a lot with at first. we ate dinner together, and with her, also on the 3rd floor, which was the first time that i really hung out with her. then we went back to their room and played cards against Disney which was fun. i remember thinking about how self conscious i was reading the cards aloud and how aware i was of how everyone thought of me. so glad that is not the case anymore.

that night we walked to swim where there was some alcohol. i chugged random cups of beer because i was so desperate. i saw dana and him there. also at some point was the midnight organ concert which was pretty cool. it was long but it sounded amazing and it felt really cool to be a part of. went there with dana and some other girls i think.

orientation progress through meetings, campus fairs, what not. we registered for classes and i do not even remember what i registered for because all but one changed by the end of shopping period. that weekend