for so long lately i have been reading reading and reading. I read three books each of the last three days, and i have been adding to my bookshelf with books from friends, bookstores and libraries non stop.

it is becoming an obsession.

and, most importantly, as I have focused so hard on shoving my beautiful brian full of knowledge, i have forgotten that learning, like living, is cyclical. I have forgotten the importance of creation, of recording, of writing, of producing.

of exporting all the knowledge.

this is not because the capacity of my brain is small. it technically is limitless. but it is because ingesting knowledge is not a practice of self love. it becomes self improvement for the sake of self improvement, not for another. creativity is a pleasure in and of itself, and so is curiosity. these are, of course, more noble than others, but they distract from the infinite being that i am .

i release understandings of myself as a reader. i am not. i am just curious, as we all are. i am just starting to become attuned to the universal, slow, subtle pulsings around me. in my flurry i forgot the importance of becoming grounded. i became obsessed, and grabbed books that did not really end up helping me.

but now i am back on my path and I am back home in myself.

but i still want to share what i have learned on this journey away.

let us start with the concept of a universal consciousness. I am now convinced that this, in soem capacity exists. this is because i’ve felt it, experienced the indescribable, and had sensations that I only validate after having them. there are tinglings and visions that are described by hosts of religions. there is the sense that the universe knows what is right, i just have to get out of the way. there is the importance of kindness and compassion. there is the interconnectedness of this world.

the infinity of the self.

in infinite awareness, all the conclusions, which i came to independently, are validated. this book attempts to provide a scientific lens to the spiritual, and if you’re unconvinced but a little curious (don’t tell me youre not at least a little bit curious) this is a good place to start.

this book agrees with the notion of a universal consciousness. it too, asks what science cannot explain, and as it turns out, there is a lot that science cannot explain. but we already knew that.

most importantly, I now know that science can never explain why. it explains how and what, but it does not explain for. it does not provide us with a reason for being. it does not provide us with meaning.

if anything, all it does is make us more lethargic and powerless. it reminds us of how infinitely complex the what and how really is, and in our search for why we’ve forgotten that all of these specialization and hyper focusing on specific phenomena are distracting us from the big picture, which the tools of science were invented ot see in the first place.

science happened because someone decided there was a right way of deriving truth.

i’m sorry, but that sounds ridiculous. we already know that so much of science does not give us objective truth, and what we thought we know is revolutionized by what we do know over and over again.

transformation is born out of upheaval. and an upheaval of science is coming. let us welcome in a new way of thinking, the way a child would welcome a new friend into their lives without judgment, hate or fear.

i call this upheaval the spiritual revolution. this is not evolution, it is revolution. it is already happening. science is proving that it alone is not enough to help us. i do mean to say that it is not enough by itself. it is extremely useful, and i have used it myself to come to many of the conclusions that i have made as of late. if we must prove through scientific methods that these truths are, then so be it.

but soon you’ll realize that you’ll feel them to be true. you won’t have to prove them. you will notice them everywhere. in every article. in every book. in every person you see, know and love, you will start to recognize what really is.

but to know what is we have to ask what isn’t.

and science isn’t.