i saw a heron today. i thought about how excited

and my stomach turned over.

oh! I noticed! i started to walk away but i stopped.
this is an indicator that i am close to my purpose.
so that means i have to try and that we are meant to be and
but i stopped myself. because no, that is not the case at all. he is part of my path.
i have no idea what his role will be. maybe it will be to reject me so i can learn that i am ok even if he rejects me completely. maybe he is the punchline to the joke that i write that makes my career as a great stand up comedian. maybe he is my husband.

i have no idea

but i don’t have to. and i don’t have to worry about it.

but that was a sign from the universe, a strong sign from my gut, and it means that he is something. whatever it is, i have to go for it. pain may be waiting on the other side, but it will be exactly what i need to grow in new, exciting ways.

all things are meant to help me.

all outcomes are the most ideal.