to respond. 

it means this work is worth it

that i am capable

thag another person actually appreciates me when i’m at my best

and wants me badly

because i am me now, more than ever, and i’ve never been loved like that

but the world loves me more

i love me more

i feel more love everywhere

i love the world

all that’s keeping me from loving more is the expectation thag he’ll respond 

that his choosing to mean he loves

but that’s not how this works

i am love independent of his

amen.