i want to feel safe and secure, but safest when you’re not with me because i trust implicitly
i want to feel so deeply grateful that i can cry just looking at you and thinking about how lucky i am
i also want to feel worthy, that what is told to me and the love i feel is valid
i want to feel at peace. i don’t want anything better i don’t need anyone else. but i’m also ok if you’re not there because j love myself enough to heal
i want to feel known. i want presents that are thoughtful that reflect the deepest parts of myself
i want to feel admired, proud of. show me off!
i want to feel like how i felt when you looked at me that day. like with such little time, you knew me. you loved me. and i deeply, truly mattered to you.

i deserve to feel that always. i let myself feel that always. and that feeling is why i really, really find it so hard to let you go.

nobody’s ever looked at me like that
nobody’s turned my heart to mush with a glance
you did and you didn’t know it and you didn’t mean to but
here i am
soggy in the face of your power
soft in the light from your love

i was enough. i didn’t do anything i didn’t say anything i completely let go
and in no time
i was enough
i still am. thank you for reminding me 🙂
xoxo (i hope lol)